Dreams... 梦想。。。

五月天的阿信的名言

我曾天真的以为
小时候的梦想
每一个每一个都会实现
直到我慢慢的长大 才知道
人生就像热气球一样
要越飞越高 就要把沙袋
一个一个的丢掉
慢慢地到最后梦想都丢光了
我变成了我最不认识的我

读了阿信的名言后，我有许多的感触。。。
我也曾经单纯的以为
只要我努力认真地去做好每一件事
不管是学业还是对于恋情
我都以为就会得到回报
可是呢 现实往往不会如你所愿

我相信雨过天晴后会出现彩虹
而彩虹的另一端我会找到我的黄金
因为曾经我也得到过我的黄金
但是那是短暂的。。。转眼间就不见了。。。

小时候我也有很多的梦想
渐渐的长大才发现我的梦想已离我越来越远了。。
从迷失方向到找回自己
最近的我又迷失了方向
我不知道几时才会找到自己要去的地方
也不知道几时才会到达我的目的地。。。

无题

为什么要比较？
输或赢很重要吗？
即使我的成绩没比别人的好那又怎样？
我的成绩可以说是烂到极点的那又怎样？
我从小到大都不喜欢比较。。。
只是那些大人们都爱比较。。。
这是社会丑陋的一面。。。
别人考得比我好那又怎样？
我才不希罕！I dunn care!
朋友都说我看太多的戏，总是活在戏的剧情里头。。。
我不否认。。我是个戏迷，只要是好看的戏我都回去看。。
我也会沉迷于戏里头。。
因为只有在戏里男女主角才会有美好的结局。。。
而现实生活中是不可能会发生像偶像剧里头的情节。。
所以我喜欢活在我自己的小小世界里头，没有人懂也没有人能偷窥的世界。。。
更没有人会比较的世界。。。
只有自己的幻想世界。。。

雨天~

不知道是不是因为今天是雨天所以心情特别蓝。。。
我一整天都是处于迷茫的状态。。。
突然间觉得很没有目标。。
我生活目标不知到哪里去了。。
有人说吃巧克力会开心起来，所以我特爱吃巧克力。。
我希望把不快乐留在昨天。。。
也不知道自己不快乐什么。。
或许是因为‘他’有心仪的对象、也许是因为自己的成绩糟透了。。
也可能是因为雨天的关系吧。。。
令人特别的伤感。。。

吴尊~

Merry Christmas...
Currently into 花样少年少女。。。
好喜欢吴尊。。。
故事是描述一位女生假扮男生混进了一所男校，只为了看到她所欣赏的男生。。。
而这个女生就是Ella所饰演的卢瑞稀，男生则是吴尊所饰演的左以泉。。
故事曲折搞笑，一段纯纯的爱情因而开始。。。
而我也渐渐的开始喜欢上吴尊了。。
也许我真正喜欢的是左以泉。。。
羡慕瑞稀能得到他的照顾与呵护。。。
欣赏他对跳高的热爱， 喜欢他帅帅的模样， 更崇拜他能一眼就看穿瑞稀的心事。。。
他简直就是许多女生心目中的王子。。。
可是像他这样的男生只能在偶像剧里才会出现。
现实生活中，我想难咯。。。
我也觉得瑞稀很勇敢，为了喜欢的人而不顾一切的女扮男装混进了男校里头。。。
我未必能做得到。。。

生活~

Today went to one of my jie mei's bday.. Went there earlier to help decor the hse.. Enjoy myself alot...=) 当我看到朋友许愿时，我才发现愿望只能在童话里实现。。。 From another fren I got to know that the guy that I admired is attached... 原以为已经把他给忘了，却发现其实他一直都在我心里。。。喜欢一个人可以是3秒钟，可是要忘记一个人可能需要一辈子的时间。。。

Shopping~

Quite long didn't go shopping with my mum le.. Tt's why today went shopping with her.. As usual, I bought alot of stuffs... Today we went Chinatown... Tot of going to the Chinese Heritage Centre... Cos tt time went before once for some projects... N i think it's interesting... So wanted to go another time today.. But in the end didn't go cos by the time we finished shopping it's already quite late le.. Abit disappointed... nvm.. Still can go the next time with frenz... Hopefully they will want to accompany mi there... Gee.. =) For the next few days my life is packed with activities.. Cos Christmas is coming, my fave season of the year.. Hee.. Cos can go for countdown cum overnight at fren's hse... There ll be all girls' talk, trying to digged out each others secrets.. Haha... But this year may onli haf countdown n no overnight =( Slightly disappointed but at least there's countdown, better than nothing.. muz learn to 知足....On Christmas Day maybe going to one of my fren's church to see there performance... Hope that it will be interesting.. Hee.. Sometimes I wonder izzit tt as we get older we would like to hangout with our frenz more than with our parents... Guess I'm still learning to juggle my time between frenz n family... At least I'll always try to eat dinner with my family instead of frenz... Geez...But tml I'll be eating out with my sec sch frenz.. Cos quite long never meet up with them le.. Can see tt mi 口是心非.. hee..

心情

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知到后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的断裂
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心蹋地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的弦外之音我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
才常泼我冷水派我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我美好形象保密

我很喜欢范范的一个像夏天一个像秋天。说出了爱情与友情的故事。今天我在想怎么样的朋友才算是一辈子的朋友。。。是不是认识了十年的朋友才是真正的朋友呢？其实我也不知道。。。我也还在寻找答案。。。我觉得有时候有些认识了有5年多的朋友我也不太了解她们。。。是因为我是一个很难了解的人，所以她们不太想了解我？还是我从来也不想让别人了解？其实我也还是不知道。。。希望有一天我能更了解这些认识了很多年的朋友。。。更希望有一天她们也能更了解我。。。 毕竟能当朋友是一种缘分。。。 我不希望当我老的时候或在我有难的时候才恍然发觉原来真心的朋友没几个。。。

Pulau Ubin Trip... Yea~

Pulau Ubin, my first time there today... 我的第一次。。。 It is situated juz off the eastern corner of mainland Singapore.. A good place to be close to Mother Nature if U are a nature lover... N a place to escape from the usual hustling and bustling city life in Singapore... Fun and interesting are the words to describe... Though I'm the worst and the slowest cyclist among the group, I realli enjoyed myself there.... Geez... But thx to the ppl there who are willing to wait for mi and help mi in need.. =) Still learning to be independent ba... Think it's a rather nice experience... 我真的有那种真正活过的感觉。。。 有那种青春的感觉。。 。虽然把自己弄得脏兮兮的，可是我还是玩得很开心。。。

Blues..

今天心情很蓝。或许还放不开吧。也不知道自己的生活那里出错。。。怎么总是输给别人呢？你们可以说我幼稚，因为我不喜欢输给别人的那种感觉。也许这一次我是真的 put in all my efforts yet the results dunn show, 所以我才那么的是失望吧。。。也许过几天我的心情会变好吧。。。只要我想通了，心情就会好起来。也许我会遇到一些意想不到的惊喜，心情也就会变好。

伤感~

Today went to another fren's b'day.. She's one of my closer frenz.. Dec quite a no. of frenz b'day.. Think i'm getting poorer.. Her b'day, there's alot of yummy food... But quite wasted tt i didn't eat much.. Cos I'm not feeling well.. Flu cum abit of sore throat.. think their best fren cough is coming to visit mi too.. Can see from my title伤感~ 今天从朋友的口中知道可以拿回成绩。 原以为会考得不错，但是我错了。My results sucks man! 我觉得我比别人还用功，可是成绩永远也输给　别人。而我也明白了 Life is never fair 的道理了。。 我的人生的downs are always more than ups, 而我也知道我能走到这么远，不是因为自己聪明，而是用功得来的。想起了五月天的一首歌《九号球》，“也许我这一生又没办法进球，就像我的生活一直在出差错。。。”，觉得这首歌说出了我的心声。我也好喜欢这首歌。Hard work never payoff... So i won't be mugging so hard when school starts.. 今天伤心完了后，明天我就不去想了。明天的我要过得比今天快乐。Switch to can't be bothered mood le.. Hack care le.. 我想我已经放弃了。Studies is not my everything...

Singing..

Today went singing with one of my bestest frenz... I realli enjoyed myself esp like half a yr never go singing le.. But since yesterday mi having sore throat.. Think didn't drink enuff H2O ba.. I'm still a kid, never know how to take care of myself... Juz now called another bestest 姐妹, we talked abt alot of stuffs, esp abt our JC life.. Realli misses those days... Mugging together ( though we also mugged tgt now, the atmosphere is different ba.. ), gossiping abt other ppl...Haiz..如果是光能倒流。。。This phrase reminds mi of 五月天！^。^ Cos they mentioned before that, 我从来不说出如果是光能倒流这种话。因为如果是光能倒流，这一切就不那么的珍贵了。But i dunn realli agree with it..Cos i think 如果是光能倒流的话，我会更珍惜我们在一起的日子。Now thinking back, the things that I did then were quite silly ba... Mayb at that point of time, I'll think that at least i did that and there's no regrets.. 以前曾经喜欢过的‘他’，至今还仍然会想起‘他’。想起不代表喜欢， 只是有点遗憾。。。有点自相矛盾的感觉。。。我曾经跟朋友说过我已经忘了‘喜欢’是什么感觉，她却说我只是还没遇见一个好男生。或许她说得对吧。。。

birthday~

Yesterday juz went to another fren's bday celebration... hmmm... Can't say v fun cos mayb he's not a close fren ba... Last min shopping for his present.. =P After buying his present, the few of us found a place to sit down to gossip since there's time... hee... I realised tt the few of us have been frenz for 5+ yrs.. 可见岁月不留人。haha.. I'm old... Actualli not tt old too.. Hee... We were updating each other abt our present situation... Complaining abt certain ppl tt we are 不爽abt. Another fren called mi later tt night.. A fren tt i juz know not long ago... Though i didn't know her for long, I'm quite open to her.. she is like a 姐姐 to mi.. I shared some of my personal stuffs ro her, think she is a great listener too.. during my sec sch days, a few yrs back, think i was rather pessimistic.. But now i'm more optimistic.. Cos i know tt studies is not my everything.. 我也学会了看开了很多的东西。There are certain hurdles in life tt we need to overcome... through these hurdles I've learn to be more positive in my thinking... =) 所以我告诉我自己，今天的我要过得比昨天快乐。

holiday mood...

Finalli, my exams are over.
juz setup a simple blog.. Esp when I'm a 电脑白痴。Hee..
Currently reading デスノートcomics a fren lent mi..
the battle of wits between 夜神月and L... おもしろいですね。